From the time I realized that I might be pregnant, my very first thoughts were of what type of birth I’d have.  Might sound silly to some – first time moms or those with “textbook” pregnancies/births – but for me it was a huge part of my daily thoughts.  Would this birth be another chance to have a truly natural, vaginal birth?  What could I do to ensure this was so?  Could I go back to the birth center who pretty coldly dropped me as soon as our third son was confirmed breech?  Could we afford a home birth midwife?  A doula?  Would that even be “safe” considering my history? …